Mad At Myself

I am so mad at myself. Why? you may be asking, well becuase tonight that winter dance came around and I went to it. With Shae. And totally blew it, yes the girl I like and have liked since the 4th grade had a bad time. I mean I did all kinds of preparation, and then I clamed up and blew it. I was going to ask her if she would go out with me. But I also think that honestly she didnt want to go with me. And if so then I wore a suit for no reason (although I got lots of comments). My only problem is becuase im so sad becuase, I really, really like her. And now I feel so crappy and and.... I Really Like Her and she is just so beutiful. I mean in that red dress that she was wearing, just increased her beauty. There are and still are so many things I want to tell her. I want to know more about her. But basically all I know about her are: 1) She is 12, 2)Her favorite words (from what I know) are Famous and thats all I know. But as you can see there are so many things I want to ask her. But she is popular and im not. I mean, I wanted to ask her to dance and she just looked beuiful and I was just shy and to myself. I just want to restart the night and just restart becuase, honestly I really like her. and im just really complecated. But she just.... Well Im going to go cry and write a long detailed not to her and ask her if maybe, just maybe she could give me another chance. I just want one more chance, but maybe I screwed it up compleately by being shy, quiet when im normally talktive and enthusiastic. Please, if you can, respond and tell me what I should do.